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June 25, 2019

I thought I had chosen another guy over him. I had chosen myself instead.

Civitavecchia

I wanna live in a place where winters are not harsh, but still..  they happen. So I can be happier when spring and summer come.
 Short term is easy. Long term is demanding. But the truth will only stand out in the long run.

To Bieda and back

 I drive with green gold in my trunk And in my life I've been a pinch of everything 

Legacy

We went for a walk. I played Cotton Fields for him to listen. He told me 'bout a song Grampa liked. He remembered half a line and that the song was dedicated to a certain Lucie. I googled that half line and played the song.  It took a while before it got to those fee words he remembered, but by that time a smile appeared on his face, that is so familiar. I felt in a glimpse a deep connection going beyond time and space. A connection to my dad, and from him to Grampa and through him, between us all.  We shared a moment, they shared another, but all these moments are connected, the present moment wouldn't have been, without the past ones. And we had Rolly with us! 
 It felt like certitude with him. And I was never, not even for a second, afraid that he would slip from my arms. I never really wanted to hold him indeed I wanted to be close to him He wanted to be close to me And we keep wanting to